Current mood:

discontent

So at this moment I feel really confused. I dont know what I want anymore and I cant decide which direction to travel in. I feel, like I want to dive under my duvet and get away from my life for a while so that when i get back ill have a clear head and feel happy about everything.
Sad thing is, I cant.
Its like a battle under my skin that has got so out of control I dont know whos fighting on what side anymore. Its something I cant exactly put into words but as you can see im trying. Its like that horrible anxious feeling you get that you cant shake, in your stomach like a tonne of bricks weighing you down and making you think about that event over and over again until youve thought about it so much its all muddled like a foreign language you dont understand. This is why Im going to go to bed and attempt to sleep and hope that i will wakeup in the morning with a clean mind and contentment with where I am. However unlikely it may be. I might just have to wait for things to sort themselves out.
Adios